some serious shit thats been on my mind.. if you got the time, read it, and hit me up in the inbox c:
after Ivy, i dont really have interest in women anymore.. she showed me the good and the bad in women, but she also showed me the evil.. to the point where ive heeded her advice. i do need to change. i need to stop lying to myself. i was never sexually satisfied, i had to fake it the whole time. and the lack of sexual attraction eventually made me spiteful and mean. i guess what im trying to say is, i think im gay..
in other news,
i dont feel comfortable in my own skin. i currently identify as genderqueer, but more often than not i wish i was a woman.. the one thing holding me back is the fact im a rather well endowed man, but even that isnt the same gold as it used to be..
i dont know what to do anymore. i cant find a decent guy, so i lower my standards to women, get hurt, and the cycle repeats. i need to be loved o.o